Corporate Hippy

Most of the time, I emplore a not-so-girly persona. I don’t generally spend lots of time in front of the mirror ‘making myself pretty’ and I generally do enjoy being muddy. I’m really not much of a shopper and I absolutely HATE the mall.

Every now and then, tho, the girl in me sneaks out …

I had to go to the bookstore for a technical book today (Cisco Access Control Security: AAA Administration Services), which is just across the parking lot from Old Navy. I’ve worked on this side of town for 5+ years now, and have gone to that bookstore (and the CompUSA right next to it) many, many times, but have never set foot in that Old Navy. Until today.

Maybe its because the sky was so gray today, or because Nick decided to take the day off from work (after I’d already trugged my way through icy hell to get to work), or because my boss decided NOT to take the day off from work despite the disgusting weather/road situation. Maybe its because I’ve not lost the weight I was hoping to loose and I feel like crying when I look at my wardrobe because its all so old and frumpy. Whatever it was, I found myself parking by the Old Navy and going inside.

I walked around the store for awhile, looking at all the psuedo-hippie clothes, some of which were appealing, most of which were hideous. I’ll never understand the need to pay full retail cost for a pair of ‘worn in’ pants that have pretend rips and holes in them (they’re not real holes mind you, just manufactured to look that way). But, they did have alot of springtime colors about, which imediately peaqued my interest.

Before I knew it, I was in the changing room with a handful of dreadful items (3 different styles of cargo pants, an overpriced tanktop, a nice pair of sale-rack kahki pants, and a tragic skirt that was much more appealing on the hanger). The cargo pants were all silly. I pondered the Kahki’s for awhile, they fit nice, but weren’t a color I’d generally wear (very light kahki color). The tank top was kind of nice, but not worth $10 (on sale!). So, I decided to cash in my chips and call it a day.

On my way out though, they had a display of nice, plain, short-sleeve tees in pretty spring colors. I couldn’t help myself. One thing Old Navy does well is women’s tees. I’ve got a few that I’ve had for years and still have held up well. Kind of bizzare considering most everything else I’ve ever bought from there lasted only a few months. The price was right (2 for $15), so I splurged and bought myself some new spring shirts.

Suddenly, my day seemed much brighter. Silly, isn’t it? Maybe shopping and buying clothes is really part of the female genetics. Maybe its something that we just have to do now and then to keep ourselves balanced? Or, maybe, I just spend too much time buying bike parts and electronics and not enough time buying work clothes and underwear …

Either way, look for me in a pretty new tee shirt in a trailhead parking lot near you! 😉

Well, here we are. Welcome to Corporate Hippy! We’ve actually been here for awhile now … I’ve written an about me page, and prettied up a theme with grand intentions … of .. well … nothing in particular. I suppose I was thinking of trying something new… But it just never seemed to happen .. I just kept posting (well, sort of) to the old blog .. and this one just kept sitting here .. collecting virtual dust…

Call it conspiracy. Call it fate. Call it good planning, or poor planning – however you want to look at it. It really doesn’t matter. It is what it is and here we are 🙂

So, welcome! If you’re lucky, the change will inspire me to write more … Or .. maybe that would make you unlucky? Check back and decide for yourself ….

Ok, you might have noticed that things keep changing around here. Well, we moved to a new web hosting co. and some of my customizations were disrupted during travel. I’d planned on rebuilding my site last weekend .. but, well, the couch was comfy and that is that.

I’ve sort of got my old theme back, and I’ve put my blogline links back (I got a couple of complaints that those were gone .. … LOL )

So, one of these days, I’ll actually spend some time spiffing this place up .. For now, this is what you get ..

I really don’t like the layout of this theme, so I might have to do some drastic stuff ..

oh … and I’ve got this other project in my brain too … not sure what will come of THIS yet tho ..

Weight Loss update:

1/14/06 – 193 lbs (new scale added 6.5 lbs)

1/21/06 – 191.5 lbs / 44% body fat (-1.5 w00t)

1/28/06 – 189.5 lbs / 43% body fat (-2 lbs -1% bf = 7 “e” sweet)

first, a quick reminder that I’ve got weight loss posts on the right under “weight loss journal” … unfortunately, its not listing the posts in order that they were written, but some sort of weird numerical order and therefore, 14 jan 06 is below 10 jan 06 .. I’ll have to look at that ..

quick notes:

• weather sucks lately .. winter needs to shit or get off the pot!
• need MMBA merchendise? you can now find it at my house
• 175 mm cranks on my Single Speed – w00t! can’t wait to try them out tomorrow!
• new jeans today – followed jess’s lead and shopped in the men’s section. sucessful jean shopping always does good things to a girl’s mood
• i seem to do better on ritalin than i was on concerta, but ritalin is more addictive. missing a day of it fucks me all up, i think. blah. i’ve got a psycho appointment next week, i’ll have to ask the doctor boss about that. i’m really getting tired of taking all of these drugs. maybe when i check out of the world, paying attention won’t be so important to me, and i’ll be able to get by on ginko 😉 heh ..
• what is the deal with ferretts anyway? they’re like mutant rats with cat-like tendencies and act like dogs. i just don’t get it. to me, they just seem dirty and kinda creepy.
• sometimes you’re the windshield; sometimes you’re the bug.

My pal has been visited in his dreams by an entity or two lately …

I had a weird dream last night, or maybe this morning. Nothing like the circus freak’s black jesus, but it was slightly unsettling all the same. I really don’t remember much, but I remember 2 things – I ran into Ted, a mountain biker friend who I don’t see much of (drama) and I didn’t recognize him until he said “hey Marty!” .. Then I looked at him and was like “woah, Ted! How ya doin kid?” ..

And then I thought I woke up, and when I looked in the mirror, my dreads had come out. No, I wasn’t bald, but I wasn’t knotty anymore either. They’d loosened to the point of complete un-knotting. I was very upset. I think I remember immediately grabbing the comb and trying to dread my head back myself in a panic.

I’m not sure why the Ted part stood out to me, and why it seems to keep popping into my head today. I wonder if he’s OK? Maybe I should send him a note.

The knotty dream is interesting because lately I’ve been very frustrated with my locks. They’ve been dry and unmanageable. I’ve been feeling very “messy” looking and have thought a few times about chopping them off. (I haven’t, because I promised myself I’d not do anything drastic for at least a year.) But now I think they’ve become a part of me. I got some new products from knotty boy which have been pretty helpful in taming my mane. I just wish they didn’t look so scraggly all the time. I want them to be smooth and luscious like so many fella’s I’ve seen. *sigh*

So, good luck to the Circus Freak who’s taking the advice of his fantastic entities and fasting for 10 days. I’m not ready to listen that closely to my dreams just yet. But then again, I’ve not been visited by the same spirit 5 times either. Heh. That’d certainly make me think twice …

On the right side of the page, underneath the Calendar, you might notice a list titled “Weight Loss Journal”.

I wanted to journal my latest weight loss initiative, but I didn’t want to bore my blog with it all, so I’ve created separate pages.

So, iffin you’re interested, that is where you’ll find my obsessive thoughts on trying to loose weight ..